Well, I haven’t been here for a while. A long while. 3 months in fact. It’s not that I don’t have anything to say, I have a lot to say, but I have struggled for the last few months.
I’ll bring you up to date on what’s been happening around here, where no one can see!
In October I finally finished my chemo. 6 months of my life…Gone! But, it was a necessary evil, one that I had to endure, to get to where I am today. I think that if I didn’t go through this process, life would have just carried on as usual, no major change. I have come so far mentally and emotionally this year. I won’t say I’ve come far physically cos I’m now on a long road to recovery, but I am on that road and it is looking good.
So, what no one told me….and I’m going to write a post about this later, that the last 2 rounds of chemo were way harder than the first. I won’t go into much detail here, but suffice to say, they were horrible. (blog post to come).
After finishing my last round, I have suffered from severe fatigue, and a few other side effects which are not major, but the fatigue really got me. It has taken until now, and a shot or two of B12 (as it has now been discovered I have severely low levels, but no one can say if this was caused by chemo, or I have been like it for a while), I’m feeling much better.
Also, I am feeling lighter. You know that feeling you get when you clear the clutter. Well, the last couple of weeks I have done that. I have cleared the clutter in my home. It was starting to get my down sometimes, so I hired a skip bin and cleared the house out. I said goodbye to a lot of things, stuff that had been hanging around. Stuff I didn’t need anymore. Stuff that was cluttering both my house and my mind. Stuff that served me no purpose anymore. And you know what……I feel so much better for it. My house is clean, clear and happy. My mind is clean, clear and happy. I am loving all parts of my life again.
But, I can’t look past the fact that 2016 was just an arse of a year. I have done some reading lately that points to the fact that 2016 is the final year in a 9 year cycle, and 2017 is a year one in the nine year cycle. I do feel that 2016 was my final year. It is time to start fresh, happy, invigorated, ready to make progress, ready to make myself shine.
So, while I have a lot of ideas of what I’m going to accomplish in 2017, I do acknowledge what 2016 has taught me. It has taught me that I can get through one of the worst experiences life can throw at you. It has taught me my body can withstand a lot of punishment. But most of all it has taught me that it’s time to change. Time to change my lifestyle, time to change my thoughts, time to change me! Time to be the best version of me that I can be!
I do have many things I still want to share with you from 2016. I travelled twice during my treatment, once to Melbourne and once to Singapore, so I have all that to share. I also have a few new recipes to share, and my whole new lifestyle to share. I want to show you that it is easy to live a healthy, relaxed lifestyle, without the stress, without the worry, without the busyness.
There are a few travel plans in the works for 2017. We are headed to Blenheim in NZ as a family in April, Melbourne in May, then hubby and I are off to the United States in June. I also have other plans, health wise, to get my body in the best possible shape it can be in, so stick around and I’ll share my journey with you. (I love reading daily journals that people blog, so hopefully (fingers crossed) I’ll be back on 1st January with my first post).
So, as I sign off from this novel, I say “see ya later” to 2016, I welcome in 2017 with open arms. This year is all about small steps to a bigger and brighter future.